Too Nice?

I've been told I'm a really nice person to pretty much anyone. Although, because I am I tend to let people walk all over me. And by people I mean friends, and by friends I mean ones I'm pretty close to and spend time with daily. So why does this always seem to happen to me? It's so frustrating, because I never know what I do, but sometimes people that I thought I was good friends with just stop talking to me. What did I do? It hurts. But then the next time someone decides to come around again and be friends, I'm just too nice and feel bad for them. Why is it so hard for me just to say no and let that person know I've been hurt. Am I too nice?

I guess so, but then when I hit this point I realize I've been lucky to have amazing best friends from home. They are the ones that you can go a year without seeing but seem to always pick up right where you left off the last time. I love that. I love them. I mean I guess I should say I love you all, because you are probably the only ones to read this. I also miss you all!

Where do you find joy?

This morning at church we had a question posed before us. Where do you find joy? Then Josh said, "ok, discuss this with your neighbor."

So at first I thought, I'm too good for this, but then Tricia and I were talking about this thought and knew Josh could call on us any second to share our thoughts. So, I thought about it and I truly find joy in God's beauty outside. I LOVE sunsets, they are the most gorgeous thing ever, it's a little gift from God everyday. I truly just enjoy sitting outside and being in God's precious land. He created such beauty and sometimes we take it for granted. I find the most joy when I'm just sitting in the company of my friends outside, maybe on Shayla's porch, or maybe just someone's backyard. It could be day or night, daytime I like just watching everything in action and seeing the beautiful colors. At night I just enjoy watching the sunset and the stars come out. It's so beautiful.

Where do you find your joy? It's not something we think about everyday, but what truly makes us happy and where do we find God?

What are you going to do?

3 years ago when I graduated high school I was about sick of the question: "What's your major going to be?"
Well, now that I am starting my senior year of college the answer is: "Marketing with an emphasis in Non-Profit Organizations."
Now the question I am about sick of hearing is: "What are you going to do when you graduate in May?"
Answer: "Ask me again in May." or "Honestly, I have no clue."

In all honesty, I am just letting the Lord guide me in that, I have full faith that something will fall into my lap at the perfect time. Not saying I'm not going to look, because I for sure will search for something that makes me completely happy. Who knows, it could be me moving overseas for a few years and finding a job there? After talking with a pretty wise person a few weeks ago he suggested, why not go back? When else will you have the chance, other than when you graduate? It's for sure a consideration now.

Other than that, life is good. Things are good. God is good. His unfailing love is good. And I'm still living, loving, and learning. Oh and I have amazing friends, I just wish we could all be together:
So I haven't seen Erin yet this summer, but this picture is my tribute to her:

"God is in the slums, in the cardboard boxes where the poor play house. God is in the silence of a mother who has infected her child with a virus that will end both their lives. God is in the cries heard under the rubble of war. God is in the debris of wasted opportunity and lives, and God is with us if we are with them."
-Bono